Solitude

There are times on my path when I feel alone, deserted, desolate. It feels like I look around, and find no open ear, open arms or safe haven. I know I’m a ship built for the storms, but there were times in my life when I could always find home and shelter. Now, those days feel far, far away.

There are days of confusion when everything around me is out of sync. Times when what I seem to be saying has no connection to what I think or harbor in my heart. I look at life like a blurry, confusing movie in an unknown language. Clarity escapes me.

Chaos and uncertainty never troubled me excessively, but the loneliness of this feeling of being singled out, left alone, or pushed aside leaves me in a bitter, empty place. And then anger looms around.

I’m left with thoughts of Why. I’m not grateful, positive or happy; I feel I’m being shoved around and dissed. Questioned, judged. Rejected.

I need Nature. Fresh air and green leaves. My True Mother, one that eagerly awaits me every single time to invite me back into oneness. I need sounds of night birds and critters, the crackling of a fire and the blessings of its smoke.

I need my feet on the dirt, the slow tap of my feet’s rhythm resonating in my bones, the cadence of my breathing giving pace to my roaming thoughts. The looks of friends doing the same. The miraculous Connection.

I need my soul to soar again.

Underfoot Musings

I love an open road, full of promises. A trailhead, running under the cover of trees to unknown adventures. A pathway, meandering to secret hideouts, to oases of peace away from the usual turmoil.

I love an empty bench, with its invitation to conversation. A pile of rocks, sitting over a stream that sings its soft watery song on a hot afternoon. A fallen trunk, leaning over the mossy greens, reminding you the importance of contemplation.

I love the roots that twist and turn, linking the Earth to the Sky. The sleepy low plants that stretch under Old Man trees, blending their youth to ancestral wisdom. Mushrooms so clean that sprouted through thick layers of decaying leaves from past seasons.

I love myself when I connect with these thoughts. I love Nature for the treasures she lays before me. I love my body for providing the movement needed for this meditation.

I love the World a little more when I travel it by foot.

DBR Series - Dirtbag Mobile : The Honda Element

 Being a Dirtbag, to me, means optimizing my life to allow for maximum off-time, adventures and travel. It involves trying to save my money by not spending on things I don’t need, keeping as small a footprint as I can and investing only in things that serve the purpose of my wanderlust.

When I left for a 10-month sabbatical, in 2013, I knew I would live out of a vehicle most of my time, and figured I needed some sort of van to accommodate my running gear, my clothing and the stuff I needed to live on the road. I sold my car and bought the now-famous El Capitan, a 1998 GMC Safari I converted myself into a house on wheels.

I didn’t have much money at the time and the van was an incredible deal at 1200$. I fixed the body and had a mechanic friend go around all that I needed for safe travels, and ended up having an amazing time traveling upwards of 30,000 miles over Canada, the United States and Mexico.

The inside of "El Capitan"

But when I came back to Montreal, city life quickly hit me. The Safari is a big, long vehicle that isn’t easy to drive around and park. While maintenance is fairly cheap, it doesn’t have good gas mileage and guzzles terribly when driving stop-and-go. With several little quirks to fix up, I decided it was time for the old El Capitan to find new adventures on the open highway and ended up selling it to a really cool dude.

For a 9-to-5, working man, undercover dirtbag like me, a vehicle must have many contradicting uses. It needs to be driveable in busy urban traffic, decent on gas mileage, low-maintenance and reliable, just like any other regular city car. But on the weekends, it needs to turn into an adventure machine capable of carrying me and my gear over highways and sometimes rougher terrain, and then double as a camper to sleep in.

Turns out there exists such a flexible, versatile vehicle out there, and it’s been adopted by many traveling dirtbags for its ingenuity and its reliability; the Honda Element might look like a toaster at first glance, but when you’re done going over its capabilities, there’s a good chance you’ll be head over heels in love with that awesome little truck.

First of all, it was designed with dirtbags in mind. Honda consulted with surfers and adventure sports enthusiasts to create the Element, and followed their lead. As a result, the “E”, as owners like to call it, presents some pretty interesting basic features :

• A 4-cylinder engine that is very frugal on gas for a vehicle that size (about 22-25 MPG)
• It trades the traditional carpeting for rubberized flooring, making it insanely easy to maintain and clean
• The back seats can be folded, flipped up or removed in a matter of seconds, leaving a huge open space in the back
• “Suicide doors” that open like barn doors, without the usual middle pillar
• A hatch and tailgate at the back to completely open the rear cargo space
• Storage space everywhere; on the dashboard, inside the doors, on the back of the seats, etc.
• Solid brackets for attaching all sorts of straps and benders, including a kit to tie down a bicycle

Furthermore, the AWD, more equipped versions add some pretty cool dirtbag-friendly features :

• Decent off-road capabilities with adaptive 4×4 transmission
• A “moon roof” over the back seats
• A “table kit” that transforms your spare tire lid into a camping table
• A “cabana” that adds a tent to your open tailgate

Elements were made between 2003 and 2011, and were quite popular vehicles, so they’re not hard to find on the used market and there are still a decent number of them with very low mileage. Up here in Quebec, an E in good shape with 110-115,000 miles will cost you around $5,500 or $6,500 and will last you for another 200,000 miles with very little maintenance if you treat it right.

Dirtbags will want to go for the AWD versions with the back moon roof, because it makes camping an awesome experience. With a bed laid in the back, you can go to sleep looking at the stars above and you also benefit from seriously improved ventilation when it’s hot.

The hooks and grab handles make it easy to hang stuff such as curtain poles and cargo nets, which means you probably won’t have to drill and glue and screw your stuff on the interior panels, thus eliminating a major pain in the ass. The recessed windows are easy to cover with cut-to-size sunshades or even cardboard if you want to do it on the ultra-cheap.

I haven’t really begun to seriously modify Dust-E for serious road trips yet, but I can already spend weekends on the road with the back seats flipped up and a memory-foam mattress in the back plus a couple bins full of gear. Things will only get better as the transformation happens.

In the next post of the series, we will go over a list of ways to improve a Honda Element for dirtbag lifestyle and look at some conversion options for you to choose from. You will soon realize this little vehicle has a lot to offer and not much to envy from bigger vans and rigs that can’t hold a candle to its utility as an urban vehicle.

I hope you like the adventure